It’s time to go and leave this place. I have done all I can here in San Diego- made lots of friends (close and shallow), lived in lots of different apts and houses, found my two loves for music, worked in several nonprofits, fell in love, went out by myself, and did it all on my own with no friends or family nearby. It was fun, but my time here is up. I don’t feel like I’m getting anywhere anymore. I feel stuck in a rut in all aspects of my life. I’m not in the right line of work, I haven’t found the perfect place to live, I keep getting my heart broken, and I haven’t found myself yet…almost, but not yet.
Today I met up with two girls who were my two first friends out here in San Diego. It was such a wonderful feeling seeing them again and reconnecting. We’ve all been terrible at keeping in touch, but it didn’t matter b/c as soon as we were together again it was as if nothing had changed. Of course we’re more mature now, but we still fit together and were comfortable together. Catching up on each other’s lives took some time, but it was great to see them coming into their own. One of them is engaged, the other is in a serious relationship (a first for her) and they are both beaming full of life. I told them of my plans to move to Colombia and they were so happy and excited for me. It was at that point that I realized that my life here in San Diego had made a circle. I started my journey with them here and now I’m close to ending it. They introduced me to a few people 6 years ago who led me to a few other people who now mean the world to me. But, like them, I’m ready to take on the next part of my life. They gave me that extra boost of confidence I needed to take the next steps, reassuring me that if I could move to SD on my own, I could do it again in Colombia. I’ve got the strength within me- I’ve just got to do it.
So today I started my blog that I'll continue to write in while in Colombia. I promise to be as honest/raw as possible and as curious as I can. I have a feeling I’ll find myself…and maybe even find a few surprises along the way. Can’t wait to embark on this new adventure. I just hope I’m not too lonely. It’s inevitable that I will be for a while, but I hope I don’t drown in it. It's scary and exciting all at the same time. Looking forward to it though.... ;)
